Have you ever been struck by how the most beautiful part of a tree is the wounded part, where a limb has been torn off? Probably it was a difficult experience for the tree, limited its capacity to function efficiently for some time. But it healed. It survived. And it was left with a unique and interesting, and sometimes staggeringly beautiful scar.
You are like that.
Reassess your wounds. Perhaps they are what has made you so beautiful.